B. van der Kolk on new advances in trauma treatment

I am currently studying massage at Esalen, and was fortunate to have the chance to hear Bessel van der Kolk speak on new advances in trauma treatment. Here is a summary of some of the ideas he discussed.

Bessel at EsalenBessel began his talk by making the point that people have been indifferent to the people who suffer trauma at least since the 1500s when Pieter Brueghel the Elder painted Landscape with the Fall of Icarus, and those around to witness the spectacular event went about their business and let the boy drown. He then discussed the US government’s prioritization of trauma that is worth treating. 2.5 million children are physically abused in the US each year. Changing this would require ensuring everyone has enough food and a home to feel safe in, yet the food stamp program was just revoked by congress. Conversely, there was $83 million in funding offered to help the families of the 3 people who were killed by the Boston marathon bombings.

He described the body’s fight, flight, or freeze response to trauma, and said that few of the 911 witnesses who could run over the bridge to the safety of home suffered Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). A boy who witnessed people jumping out of the towers to their death found the imagination to think of a solution for the future (a trampoline) while President Bush froze for 17 minutes. So being able to run or otherwise work off the adrenaline response to a dangerous situation, having a home to go to, and having people to take care of oneself until able to function again are all factors that help prevent PTSD in response to trauma. It is also helpful if someone takes charge who seems to know what they are doing—this is reassuring. Being able to speak about the trauma is the first requirement, so those suffering from secret trauma (physical or sexual abuse at Fall of Icarushome, molestation, rape, and soldiers) don’t get the help they need—a survivor can’t deal with trauma until someone is willing to listen. Survivors also must be able to cultivate their imagination in order to heal, for example by imagining an alternate outcome.

The survivors of 911 said these were the most effective ways to treat trauma, in order: acupuncture (1), massage, yoga, and EMDR (4). EMDR has been studied the most, and yoga is also an evidence-based treatment. Massage has not been studied, nor has acupuncture. But the officials in charge of funding wanted to fund psychoanalysis and cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) as treatment modalities for the survivors. Yet during a traumatic event, the frontal lobe shuts down and the limbic brain takes over. So psychoanalysis and CBT are not effective at treating trauma—cognitive understanding has no pathways to the emotional system. But no one is doing limbic system therapy. (He did not mention all the somatic modalities of trauma-treatment therapy that are out there, such as somatic experiencing. And actually EMDR is somatic as well.) Bessel said Internal Family Systems (IFS) therapy is very effective for treating chronic trauma, while EMDR is effective for single events. Neurofeedback is a new trauma-treatment method that changes how the brain processes information. It involves expensive equipment and is mechanical. The Boston school system is experimenting with theatre for traumatized kids; taking a different role than the person they usually feel like has been very effective for some children.

Brain under stress
Brain under stress

People who have PTSD can be triggered by the most innocuous event that others would not find traumatic at all. For example, being touched during child’s pose in a yoga class could re-trigger a traumatic event. Those with PTSD perceive the world as a dangerous place. The brain is actually changed by chronic danger, so that the survivor can’t accurately perceive what is going on in the present. The brain waves produced from different parts of the brain in response to stimulus are altered. The chronic arousal (hyperalertness) caused by PTSD also reduces the body’s immune system’s ability to fight disease. They need to find ways to calm their bodies and reclaim ownership of their bodies. Feldenkrais can help people feel safe some of the time. Yoga is as helpful as most psychological treatments; people with PTSD feel uncomfortable in their bodies, and a trauma-sensitive yoga class can help people learn to feel a sense of safety and ownership (control) of their bodies, and connection to their breath is calming. Massage can be boundary-violating, but if it is gentle, thoughtful, and responsive to the client’s agreement of where they can be touched, it can be very powerful. People are not healed from PTSD until they can be safely touched.

Bessel’s new book, The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma, will be coming out in June 2014. It describes the impact of trauma on brain chemistry, and the studies that have been done with neurofeedback, in greater detail.

2014 writing and programs at BC Wilderness Visions

Karen & DonnetteWith the sale of Monkey Valley in 2013, I have contemplated what to do about this blog and the nature programs I like to offer, such as the vision fast, medicine walk, yoga in nature, and other ideas that are percolating in my mind.

This year I will offer my favourite do-it-yourself type of nature program, the medicine walk, with a teaching on the nature psychology of four directions. I am excited to be offering this program again. The 2011 day trip to the North Shore mountains was a day I still remember with gladness. I hope that you will decide to join me on this year’s adventure! See the Programs page for details.

Greatest writing book of all time!I love writing for this blog. Perhaps it’s selfish of me, because it’s like a Natalie Goldberg Writing Down the Bones homework assignment. I just write what I feel like writing, when I feel like it. I don’t pay too much attention to grammar, given the informal nature of this genre, though I do like to make sure the spelling is right! One or two of the serial stories I’ve written here have been published in other places. And even some of the photos. So it’s a fertile ground for a writer. But mostly it’s just fun.

Now and then a reader discovers the site and enjoys browsing through some of the bizarre things I’ve written over the years. And once in a while what I’ve written strikes a chord and provides support on someone’s journey through life. That is what really makes this blog worthwhile. Like the recent comment from Hannah about her spiritual experience with cougars.

So I guess I’ll just keep writing about whatever strikes my fancy, loosely following the theme of nature spirituality. Stay tuned!

Winter solstice blessings

Vancouver snowTurning now to winter time in Vancouver, and the turning of the year and the planet, let’s take a look at the splendid Vancouver beauty after our second snowfall of the winter. Oh, actually, they were both in the fall! For today is the first day of winter! But the snow doesn’t care about the date. And it has covered Vancouver in a soft white blanket. Too bad it will be all gone by Christmas! So often the way here in Vancouver!

I will be heading up to William’s Lake for Christmas, so I will get to enjoy a white Christmas anyway. And it is truly a miracle, but I have already purchased and wrapped all the little gifties that Santa’s going to bring on my behalf this year. Sweet!

PrezziesAs I look at the year behind, it was a year of many gifts and blessings. I sold Monkey Valley, which was a tremendous blessing, especially because it brought so many wonders to the new owners, and they are caring for the land so beautifully. I also had many career blessings, with five wonderful clients, and three of them repeat clients!! That is an abundance of joy! And a lot of hard work, too… But I did manage to take two months off, and go on the vision fast. As well as two Diamond Approach retreats, and my Vancouver DA group met 3 times. I had my share of struggles and painful learnings this year as well, including the fight with Treo. In the end they gave me four free toll crossings! The year concludes with a feeling of connecting to my people around the world with a clear golden light, while held in the velvety black mystery, so strong at this time of year.

May all beings be happy on this winter solstice. And special blessings to our dear earth.

Monkey Valley Gladness

Rue ladder
Rue ladder

I am thrilled to see how Val and Garry have been thriving at Monkey Valley, along with their lovely little dog, Rue! I am grateful to have formed an ongoing friendship with these wonderful folks, and to be allowed to witness their blossoming and the way that the land is blossoming under their care. It really gladdens my heart to see how right this lifestyle choice has been for them!

I’d like to share a few of their stories and pictures, so you all can see the brilliant things they’ve been up to!

Full woodshedI don’t know if I mentioned this before, but Val and Garry were in the hedging business in Vancouver. Not hedge funds and green money, but hedging herbaceous woody green living things. They brought this talent to Monkey Valley, and set to work right away! Well, actually, their first order of business was to get a dog, and they found the mischievious little Rue dog, and brought him home.

Unplowed beautyFrom Val: “Here he is….. His name is now “Rue”…… And, he’s going to be a big boy….. We cannot monitor the stuff he may find around the property and as you have likely heard, along with premium puppy food he eats rabbit, mouse, bat, mushrooms, bark and charcoal. His temperament is beyond reproach… Rue is ‘home’.”

Then they set to work cleaning up the deadfall all around the house and barn. My brother-in-law had been worried that these city folks would be trapped in the wilderness in the cold and freeze to death. Not these folks! Check out the woodshed! Which they filled themselves–clearing, bucking, and splitting all this firewood. Wow!! Beautiful work!

Gatored roadThe other worry was that they would be trapped with no way out once the snow started to fly. Again, not these folks! Garry’s second order of business was to get the Gator, a rugged and versatile machine that has performed all manner of tasks and transportation, including plowing the Starshine and Dillard Road all the way from the house to Loon Lake Road! Check out this masterful road-clearing work! And the beauty of it.

From Garry: “This was Dillard road coming home from Vancouver in the van with summer tires and chains on. I just scratched up a couple of the hills but was in awe at the beauty of the road and cursing myself for coming in after dark. In hindsight it was fantastic. I guess I’ll have to plow all the way to Loon Lake road to get Val out and back in.” He certainly did a great job!

And here he is afterward, enjoying some well-earned rest with the dog also resting after a day’s labour!Garry & Rue

 

Vision fast fruits: protect bees from buzz kill!

Wonderful womenFasting in the desert… again!

I just returned from a women’s vision fast in California, where I met a fabulous group of women and reconnected with some of the wonderful women guides I have apprenticed with in the past. The reason I chose to fast at this time was to celebrate the sale of Monkey Valley and to contemplate where I am at this point in my life. It is a pause between the old and the new. One of the guides, Silvia, offered the view that Monkey Valley had kicked me out—told me to leave and start the next phase of my life. I liked that!

Part of my 4-day fast mirrored the move from Monkey Valley back to Vancouver, from solitude to being close to my people. It is magical how nature can mirror us to ourselves! In this case, with the help of some yellow ants on a yellow mountain. An invading army of Crazy guidesthe ants helped shoo me off the mountain to a place that was within earshot of the laughter in base camp. The new spot was near a road, and I saw people from our group walking there every day. It was a new way to be in the ceremony, and I learned about allowing myself to be impacted by people. Very heart-warming! I was impacted by each of the women in the group, and found it was a gift to be able to feel how each of these unique souls felt as they struggled and thrived in their journey through life. Thank you, dear women!

That old nature-human heart connection

BristleconeThe time in the high mountain desert affirmed that my connection to nature is a permanent part of my life and being. Living in a city does not change that. (Especially a city like Vancouver!) A golden eagle guided me to a path that led to an ancient bristlecone pine tree. I’ll write more about these amazing trees later, but in short, they are the oldest living creatures on this earth—some of them almost 5,000 years old! During my fasting time I spent many hours in the shaded shelter of juniper trees, gazing at the sky and performing ceremony via beadwork. The ancestral spirits of the land liked the beadwork, and I could hear their voices chanting on the wind. They taught me a chant of celebration. What a blessing!

One of the things I always wonder about when I go on a vision fast is what is my purpose in life? What are the gifts I bring my people? What am I supposed to do?! I’ve learned over the years that I have many gifts, and I’ve come to the point where I don’t think I need to do anything in particular. This is a freedom and lightening of the weight on my shoulders. But that doesn’t mean I will do nothing! It just means that I have a different relationship to service and contribution. I feel more open and receptive to noticing where I am called to serve.

Serving the place I live in

Shoreline cleanup groupThere are so many ways to serve: to act for political justice and human rights; to help heal people emotionally, physically, and spiritually; to protect the environment. I really believe in serving where my heart feels called to serve, in a way that brings me joy. On the weekend of the fall equinox, I joined the many Vancouverites who participated in the Great Canadian Shoreline Cleanup, together with my highschool friend Stefan Bilalakis. We picked up trash along the Trans Canada Trail. I felt happy to care for the earth this way, especially as I would directly benefit by being able to run along a clean trail!

Helping protect Canada’s food supply

Today the cause is bees. The Western Canada Wilderness Committee has a campaign on to help protect bees. You have probably heard that bee populations are declining. I learned some interesting facts in the WC2 newsletter:

  • At least one third of the food we eat is dependant on pollination.
  • Canada has lost 35 per cent of its honey bee colonies annually for the past three years.
  • There is strong scientific evidence that insecticides containing neonicotinoids are causing bees to die and creating other harmful effects to the ones who live, such as memory loss that prevents them from finding their way back to the hive.

Check out the WC2 website if you’d like to find out more or make a contribution to their campaign. I sent them $25 today, and this email to Stephen Harper:

The Right Honourable Stephen Harper, Prime Minister of Canada,
 
 There is strong scientific evidence that neonicotinoid-containing pesticides are killing bees and other pollinators. Honey bee populations in Canada have declined by 35% per year for the past three years. Did you know that bees and other pollinators are required to grow fully one third of the food we eat?
 
I am writing to request that you help protect Canada’s food supply by enacting a complete nation-wide ban on all neonicotinoid pesticides. I ask that you honour your duty to protect this land and people by protecting the bees and other pollinators that we depend upon.
 
Respectfully yours,
Karen Rempel

Karen & ChristyHere are the email addresses I sent this letter to:

Health Canada’s Pest Management Regulatory Agency (PMRA) is seeking public comments regarding its suggested measures to protect bees from the class of pesticides known as neonicotinoids (neo-nicoteen-oids). These bee-killing pesticides have been banned by the European Union, and the State of Oregon has also placed restrictions on the use of neonicotinoids. The WC2 website has a letter form that you can fill in to write to the PMRA.

I believe that each letter or email, each dollar donated, each conversation with a friend, makes a difference.

Persistence pays off?

I received a letter from Health Canada in response to my letter. Their letter stated they are investigating the evidence about neonicotinoids, but still recommending use of this type of pesticide on seeds for Canadian farmers in 2014. Ouch! Ever since reading Rachel Carson’s Silent Spring (published in 1962), about the devastating effects of pesticide use since World War II, I’ve had a sneaking suspicion that humans are insane. Greedy and insane. But 10 years after her book came out, in 1972, the use of DDT was banned in the U.S. Carson’s book was instrumental in this win, and credited with starting the North American Environmental movement. Persistence does pay off!

Monkey Valley’s new owners

Garry & ValI am very happy to announce that I sold Monkey Valley to a wonderful couple who truly love the land and home. Val and Garry first saw the place in June, but it has taken a few months for all the details to be finalized. They moved to Monkey Valley last week, and I am happy to say they have running water! 🙂

I would like to thank all the wonderful people who came to Monkey Valley and dreamed it might be their home or wilderness getaway. I hope you all find the right land for you.

This sale is the fruition of 5 years of effort, as I first listed the property in 2009. It was worth the time to find such wonderful people who truly value and connect with the land. I know it is in good hands, and they will take great care of it, while being nourished by it and having lots of fun!

MV fluff - lightly heldI would also like to thank the various realtors who assisted with attempting to sell the property. I learned a lot from you, and appreciate your advice along the way. And, you will notice, I sold it. LOL. Had to say that.

But I did learn a lot and go through many annoying growth opportunities during the process of selling Monkey Valley. I don’t know if I have actually learned to be patient yet. But I hope I will learn something from Garry about how to take things in stride, go with the flow, and enjoy every moment. And I hope to learn from Val about how to take delight in the amazing beauty of this world we live in.

I am heading off for a vision fast in California, to spend some time absorbing this big change and contemplating what comes next for me. I anticipate that I will now resume writing a blog on this site, and it won’t need to be about selling Monkey Valley! Whoopee!!

Thanks also to all the people who have had good wishes for me and Monkey Valley regarding the sale. I am sure all of that good energy also helped to make it happen.

All my best wishes to Val and Garry as they begin this chapter of their lives. If you’d like, please join me in adding your good wishes too, dear readers.

Monkey Valley Photo Retrospective

2000 – 2013

As I prepare to pass Monkey Valley into the safekeeping of new owners, I would like to celebrate and appreciate the many people, events, and moments of the past 13 years at Monkey Valley. This page shows some of my favourite photos from this time, taken by many friends and family members, and some by me. My apologies if I don’t remember and credit the right people on every photo. Let me know!

Click any photo to see a bigger version. Click the Back button on your browser, or press Ctrl-Left Arrow, to return to this page.

My heartfelt thanks go to everyone who helped in my mission to live in the wilderness. I wish I had pictures of you all to put on this page. Thank you for all you’ve done. And much gratitude to all the visitors who came to enjoy this special place with me, both human and wild (and maybe a few wild humans).

Me in 2001, near the southwest corner post. Hugh McMillan

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hugh, the amazing one who saw the potential and supported my dream, working with me tirelessly for two years to get Monkey Valley up and running, 2000

 

 

 

 

Campfire – Yoga & ChiRunning weekend 2010. Photographer unknown

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Donald guarding the weenies

 

Alex, Kim, & Geoff Kim’s 45th birthday, 2012

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Alex and Kim

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Cutest nephew

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Guess who owns Boardwalk & Park Place! And all the railroads!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Bullet hole in lock – the lock reigned indestructible, but the chain did not.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is one of my all-time favourite pictures. I know, I’m a nut. First, for putting the chair on the roof to begin with, and second, for taking a picture of it!
Me and Angela planning the ChiRunning and Yoga retreat. One of us is goofing around!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Me and Ange. Joe Charron

 

 

 

 

 

Donald guarding the ChiRunners

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Mealtime after a hard day of play

 

 

 

 

 

 

The yoga part of the retreat. Everyone is clearly exhausted from all that ChiRunning!

 

The house in the woods. Angela James

 

Winding creek flowing down the valley. Joe Charron
Nootka rose. Joe Charron
Before I put the siding on the house, 2001

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Snowy meeting room (back in the days when I had to go out onto the roof to get cell phone reception), 2008
Adah & me & Indian icecream, 2008. Kim Ashley

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The soap berries we made it from. Kim Ashley

 

 

Fence in creek. Joe Charron

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

6 fabulous runners after swimming in Missezula Lake and then running home. Joe Charron

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Tent city. Joe Charron
Two fab dishwashers – Joe and Darch

 

Butterfly, 2009. Munro Sickafoose

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dandelion beauty. Munro Sickafoose
Parhelic circle. Munro Sickafoose
Two grouse, 2009
A moose in the upper meadow, 2008

 

I love this one of Monkey and the totally ridiculous mouse trap I made, 2001
Angelic bull, 2009
No trespassing, 2012
Cloud shadow on house, 2009

 

Creek at sunset, 2000

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The corner of Dillard and Loon Lake, 2008

 

Hypnotic fire, 2011

 

 

 

 

 

 

Monkey Valley moon, 2008
Winter sky, 2006
Setting intentions at the Medicine Wheel retreat, 2005

 

Snowy tracks, 2007

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Wildflowers, 2003

 

 

Inquiry group (Marvin, Keith, and me), 2004. Dorrie Brannock
My dearest friend Dorrie, eating lunch at a picnic table in Merritt after a “Nature and the Four Directions” retreat at Monkey Valley, 2006. May her spirit be at peace.

 

 

Dean’s egg salad sandwiches – a realtor picnic, 2012

 

Special visitors, 2012

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Monkey on Dillard sign
Monkey on Dillard sign, 2013

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Frustrated driver refuses to pay toll

I'd rather be walkingOn the evening of Sunday, June 16, it took me and thousands of other drivers over 40 minutes to cross the Port Mann bridge from Surrey to Coquitlam. There were 4 lanes of stalled westbound traffic, after 9 PM on a Sunday night! I took the first exit after the bridge, and made a major detour over unfamiliar roads in the dark, because there was no sign that the traffic on Hwy 1 was moving at all. In total this caused an hour delay in my return home. There were no posted warnings on Hwy 1 that there was bridge congestion and travellers should take the Golden Ears bridge.

Treo’s website says, “What will you do with the time you save? The new Port Mann bridge is here.” What a joke! Ha ha. And the joke is on us.

Treo’s parent corporation, Transportation Investment Corporation (TIC), says, “When lane closures are permitted, traffic will be monitored to ensure that delays on Hwy 1 do not exceed 10 minutes between Coquitlam and Surrey.”

Due to their failure to meet their posted level of service, I filed a complaint with Treo and requested that they reverse the $1.50 toll. Treo’s line, via email and the frontline staff, is “We are only the tolling operator of the bridge. Traffic and construction on or around the bridge is beyond our control.”

Actually, TIC is responsible for oversight and financing of the bridge, which means oversight of the Kiewit-Flatiron contracting consortium. Recent news items (re: ice on the bridge cables) clearly indicate TIC does have the power to hold Kiewit-Flatiron responsible for failure to meet contractual obligations.

News articles also indicate that TIC keeps extensive data on how many vehicles cross the bridge, and when. Which means they could predict the impact of the construction delays on travellers. To force thousands of people to sit and wait for an hour or longer on a Sunday evening is not acceptable.

I hope the other drivers who had to wait that night are also refusing to pay the toll.

Persistence pays off

I kept escalating my complaint with Treo until finally it reached someone four levels above the original operator. This person was able to authorize Treo to compensate me. To the tune of four toll crossings—a value of $6! Of course I used up much more than $6 worth of my time to pursue this complaint, but sometimes it is the principle of the thing that matters. And fighting big corporations who think they are not accountable to the people they serve is a worthy effort. I hope more people will fight injustice. Even if it’s just worth $1.50.